i feel myself struggling to stay centered on what i really believe in: transformative justice, liberatory approaches to violence, not throwing anyone away, people are not their behavior and they can change, blah blah blah. all of the things that deep down i truly believe. and then there’s that part of me… that just wants revenge, doesn’t forgive easily, and never forgets. part of what drives my desire for revenge is not seeing any negative impact on the person that did the harm. while at the same time still very much feeling and navigating the tremendous impact that what they did had on me. i don’t see that they’ve lost anything, that their life has really changed , or that they’ve had any real consequences for what they did.